HAIIIIYAAAHHH

well as you can see from the title, GUE SEDANG MENGGILA!! yea abaikan. its been so long since the last post ya :") uhh i miss writing new stories of mine... :") But maybe, the reason that i dont have any idea to write down a new one is beacause i dont feel so miserable like before (YEAY ME!!). well, i dont think so, but lets just hope that ;)

so, the story is..... i have to leave them alone! yeah. THEM not just him hahahaa but i know im a strong person :D (but every superhero have weakness, so do i). but this part is really confusing me, why do i feel a bit relieved instead of feeling desperate. OH!! maybe i finally realized that hes not coming back!! (i wonder why does it take so long to feel that --") well yeah, now, i do feel more lively than before since "that day" (yeeh, you know what i mean~) and now im trying to do that, to leave them alone. i think i can do this thing, and finally get over with it. honestly, im so tired of havng this unstable emotions and extreme moodswings these days. you have to know how this things affect me in my activity T-T i got mad to everyone and suddenly i want to laugh without any reason... yeah so weird. but I LOVE BEING WEIRD :)

i know in every post of my stories have a sentence "i hope this is the last thing i write about you" yeah, thats so lame. BUT I DO HOPE THAT hfftt. well, sekian dari saya, saya pamit undur diri. sampai jumpa di perjumpaan berikutnya (?)

FLASHBACK:

MOMENTS, RUSHING BACK, HURT, HAPPY, WAS, SUDDENLY, YOU, GOOD, BAD, SAD, TEARS, CRY, PILLOW, SLEEP, AWAKE, MIND, LOVE, LOVED, HUGS, KISSES, EYES, PHOTOS, RED, ROSE, BLUE, DOLL, NOVEMBER, TEDDY, BEAR, POOH, PANDA, PINK, BEAUTIFUL, CUTE, HAIR, I, MISS, MISSED, LOST, LEAVE, LEFT, TEXTS, APART, BROKE, BROKEN, HEART, SMILES, SMILED, HANDS, SWEET, VIDEO, WEBCAM, STORY, LAGUGH, FIGHT, GIRLS, BOYS, PROMISES, COMMITMENTS, LIFE, LIVE, SUECIDE, CUTTER, LEFT, FAULT, WRONG, DISTANCE, NICE, ARGUE, ARGUMENT, TICKLES, NOSE, GUITAR, SING, SONGS, ME, DRUM, GAMES, PLAY, FUN, TOGETHER, WE, IF, 12, FAMILY, MOMMY, DADDY, 20, SOMETHING, THAT, MINE, OTHERS, ROOM, GLASSES, BLACK, WHITE, TIE, DRESS, MIRROR, NEW YEAR, BIRTHDAY, CHRISTMAS, EASTER, FIRE, WARM, JACKET, SHORT, TALL, BIG, ARMS, BOX, PUZZLE, BLANK, FLOPS, TSHIRT, TWINS, METRO, BOUGHT, WHY, WHEN, WHO, WHAT, CAN, MAKE, MADE, DREAMS, DREAMT, PAST, FUTURE, EVER, AFTER, TEST, STUDIED, LEARNED, MUSIC, GREEN, WITHOUT, HERE, THERE, LONG, DANCER, MODELS, OLD, ALOT, MUCH, MORE, NIGHT, MORNING, TONS, LUCK, DOING, ARE, AM, WERE, BOTH, WORRY, WORRIED, PHONE, EFFECTS, TRUST, FAITHFUL, UNFAITHFUL, LIE, TRUTH, MOVIES, THEATRE, DRINKS, ICE CREAMS, YOGHURT, FROZEN, SOUR, CORNER, ONE, SHARE, CHCOLATE, SPOONS, LOACKER,  .....

Thanks :)

I've learned something special from you dear :) something that I've never knew before. Something about love, and patience. And I'm very thankful because you've taught me thoose things. I've learned to let go too :) to let go everyhting in the past. Well, that was not easy, but I know I can do that. And now, I did it! I'm not afraid of "Goodbye" anymore. From now, I'll be more careful with myself. I hope this is the last thing I wrote about you. Now, everything is much better . I wish nothing but the best for your life, health, and career.
I think its time for the "goodbye" So, Goodbye dear :) you'll be in my heart always.

Thanks :) for all the things that you gave to me.
Memories doesn't hurt anymore dear.

knock knock

knock knock

who's there?

Merry! 

merry who?

Merry Christmas! :D

yin and yang

if you see the symbol of yin and yang, what do you think?

this is what i think. see this:
"hell" in hello
"good" in goodbye
"lie" in believe
"over" in lover
"end" in friend
"ex" in "next"
"if" in life
every good things have bad things inside, and bad things also have good things inside

the white side have a black spot. and the black one have a white spot

so, the conclusion is,
we have to know the consequence before we do something. or, we'll regretted after we're done with that things.

MOM and DAD -_-v

ngomong sama mama atau sama papa pasti ada bedanya... kali ini masalah nilai wkwkwk ceritanya gue baru lapor nilai ulum trus gue ngasih tau ke mama sama papa, daaaaan responnya beda banget -,-"
chita:         maaa nilaiku ..............
mama:       waah kok cuma 7 biologinya chiit
                 trus kok matnya cuma 8? katanya kemaren bisa
chita:         iya maa, tapi bionya itu aja aku peringkat ketujuh di kelas ._.
                 trus matku itu paling tinggi ._.
mama:       ohh, yaudah, yang lain juga jelek2 ya nilainya?
chita:         iya maa
mama:       yaudah, selamat ya fisika sama matnya, biologinya nanti belajar lagi
chita :        iya maa :D
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chita:         paaa nilaiku .............
papa:        kok biologinya cuma 70 an. matnya juga cuma 80 tipis
                liburan harus dikejar bio sama mat
chita:         mat ku aja itu udah paling tinggi di kelas paa ._.
                 bio aku ketujuh, emang jelek rata2nya, harusnya ada ralat itu
papa:         kimia harus diatas 90
chita:         iyaa
papa:         yang lain sudah cukup. nilai biologi dikejar terus perbaikannya
chita:         iya pa


hahaaa see? it's not the first time wkwkwk

a fact about me:

Life proves me wrong every time.
When will I learn to just put you first.
With you life is so easy. why do I make it hard.
 I'll get out of my own way. Let you have your way.
Cause I realized I'm no goon on my own.
I can't live without you.